getting old! :(

Fuck! fuck! fuck! i am growing old! i am thinking before every fucking thing..

Should i have another drink?

Should i smoke that joint?

Should i go into that moshpit?

I really really fucking like this chick, but do i ask her out? What are the repercussions going to be?

GOD!!! what's happened to me? where's the care free ME i knew and liked. i never thought so much . I never wanted my life to pan out this way. what have i become? i never wanted to end up being this. I never wanted to conform..u fucking society bitches!!!

i dont want to be what others want me to be. i want me to be myself. i want to live for myself. where have those days gone??

i am growing old! something i was always scared of. its happening.

"Dude, we are just pin-pricks in this destiny. We gotta know the society properly first. Only , then can we act against it", was what my friend said. I totally agree to that. But, why put on a mask. I dont want to fucking know what this society stands for, for all i care they can go to the dogs, if they havent already. I dont want to live by their standards!

All this had to happen one day i'm guessing. but why now?? i am not ready for this. :( i want to live. i just want to go back to the days where i didnt give a fuck ! where i didnt have to think twice. I didnt care whether the next peg would fuck up my happiness or the moshpit is so brutal that i mite have to stay back at home with a broken nose for the next one month. It was never a problem to just pack and go to wherever u wanted to. But, IT IS NOW!!!!

guess we all grow old one day! and its happening to me :(:( if only i could do something about it.

FAAAAAAAAKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want my life back!