getting old! :(

Fuck! fuck! fuck! i am growing old! i am thinking before every fucking thing..

Should i have another drink?

Should i smoke that joint?

Should i go into that moshpit?

I really really fucking like this chick, but do i ask her out? What are the repercussions going to be?

GOD!!! what's happened to me? where's the care free ME i knew and liked. i never thought so much . I never wanted my life to pan out this way. what have i become? i never wanted to end up being this. I never wanted to conform..u fucking society bitches!!!

i dont want to be what others want me to be. i want me to be myself. i want to live for myself. where have those days gone??

i am growing old! something i was always scared of. its happening.

"Dude, we are just pin-pricks in this destiny. We gotta know the society properly first. Only , then can we act against it", was what my friend said. I totally agree to that. But, why put on a mask. I dont want to fucking know what this society stands for, for all i care they can go to the dogs, if they havent already. I dont want to live by their standards!

All this had to happen one day i'm guessing. but why now?? i am not ready for this. :( i want to live. i just want to go back to the days where i didnt give a fuck ! where i didnt have to think twice. I didnt care whether the next peg would fuck up my happiness or the moshpit is so brutal that i mite have to stay back at home with a broken nose for the next one month. It was never a problem to just pack and go to wherever u wanted to. But, IT IS NOW!!!!

guess we all grow old one day! and its happening to me :(:( if only i could do something about it.

FAAAAAAAAKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want my life back!

a bit of this, a bit of that.

okay! my first blog...yipee! btw...this is out of complete boredom so the writer does not take any responsibility for any harm caused, which i'm guessing is going to be mental :D:P

btw...thnx shruti! :) i finally managed to create a blog.

ok! so..what am i supposed to write. aaah! this is why i din create a blog all this time i guess. i have already got the writer's block! :D:P

Well, i dont know what to write as of now. But, theres one thing i'm sure of...bhanchod exams coming up in a few days. And i'm supposed to be in studying mode right now. But, here i am sitting in front of my computer typing random stupidity. Fuck! i dont even remember the name of all the 7 subjects..wait, i think there are only 6. goddamnit! to hell with this indian education system. cunt sucking whores . bastards!

*lights up a classic milds*

So, i'm probably going to get an ATKT, worse might fail. Who gives a fuck! there's only that much i can do. alright, time to move away from this stupid topic.

So, whats been in the news lately? rumors of Metallica coming to India. aaah!! those have been doing the rounds since god knows when. But, this time i'm kind of getting that feeling that this might turn out to be true. keeping me fingers crossed. And call them what u will, sellouts, moneywhores!... they were and will remain my favourite band, and i'm sure to many across the world as well. They introduced thrash fucking metal to the world. they were the fastest thing the world knew back then. they inspired an entire generation of heavy metal to great heights. hail metallica. *respect*

And to all u cunts who think liking metallica is a sign of a poseur, i couldnt be happier to say FUCK OFF!!! i can just sympathise for you guys, for u live in a bubble. These are the guys who think anything popular has to be poseurish. and anything that came earlier has to be better. thousands of guys sprouting up on sites trying to reason about a band being better than the other just because they came earlier on the time line.yeah! sure..what came earlier is surely better..old is gold! ur dad should have just wasted u in the bathroom, coz that came first! FLUSH!!!

U say,they fucking let down their fans, they sold out! Now, tell me a thing, how many of u cunts were actually there back in the 1980s. By the time u started listening to metal, metal-the genre, as the world knew it, was almost extinct. how the fuck did anyone let u down?? these are the cunts who get introduced to metal via bands like linkin park and limp bizkit. from singing praises of such bands to going to dissing metallica. wow! that's some journey. i can only pity u guys.

aah!! as 'The eye of the beholder' plays in the background!!!!!!! bliss!

*lights up another smoke*

alright! i'm fucking bored now. enough of writing for the day. sorry for the torture you are going to go through(wow!! u are actually reading this....thnx!!!)